Tuesday, December 26, 2006
MY BEST CHRISTMAS
My best christmas celebrations were with you. When we first started off two yrs back. The moments we shared together is something i can never forget. Your family brought in the spirit of christmas once again in my life. I enjoyed every moment spent with you and your family. It was one of the best christmas i ever had. Someone i could spend Christmas with. I made a memory book filled with the little things we have encountered. And you bought me HugoBoss's Perfume. The entire set.
LAST CHRISTMAS
Last Christmas, was the worst christmas i have ever had. The saddest in fact. You left me so to help your Ex gf with her problems. I was speechless, sad, depressed. But i couldnt do anything about it. It was my final semester. I couldnt afford to even fall for a second. I wouldnt let myself. Things havent changed when Aunt Christina's Condition of Cervical Cancer worsen. I know God was going to take her any minute. It felt real bad when i had no one to turn to. Not even you. I have never felt that way in my entire life. Where all things seem to fall apart, and you are holding on alone, it sucked. I passed through that.
THIS CHRISTMAS.
I know you really wanted me to be there at your grandparents house, celebrating christmas together. But have you ever realised that it would be so difficult for me and such a painful process that i have to go through. Your grandparents and your entire family are the people i have ever loved so much apart from my own family. They dote on me and treat me like their own. How can i bear to lie to them and pretend that we are still together? I know they want me there. But i guess the best solution is for me to back off. I don't wanna make them think that we will still end up together. These are all false hopes. I cant tolerate cheaters, liars, and i shall not be one.
Posted by Valerie at 1:56 AM