Sunday, April 01, 2007
''''Pampering session''''
I spent the last 2 hours
at a manicure parlor...to
do a pedicure...was kinda
shy...first time...like letting
someone do my feet..wahaha
but i think she did a pretty
job..for my chaded feet..haha
plenty of dead skin..
haha..and i painted RED...
haha...
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Was doing some thinking in
Church this morning.. all that has
happened is somewhat a lesson.
Something that i had to go through
to know and understand that he was
really not for me. To think of it..yea..
and like i told Mel...i deserve someone
better..she couldnt agree less..
I've always wondered y i held on
for such a long time. The thing is
this...i've been going back to my so called
comfort zone..of where familarity was at
was reluctant to explore and date as
i was afraid i might lose him forever.
But little did i realise i've lost him
a long long time ago...the moment
he started hurting me. Inflicting pain
in my mind..and soul..his family was
always comforting..always a place i
know i could fall upon. I have been
in the hole..black tiny hole
for way too long..im coming out
of my shell.. ITS TIME. I know
i can do it this time. I know i can
So the next time..we talk about him
i would just say "I don't know.He is
out of my life."
Posted by Valerie at 8:08 PM